I don't know what to say or do or think...just so confused and frustrated with myself.
Today was the day i really felt that God would just end my fucking life and take me up to heaven. Come on, realistically speaking, being a human is just too hard. Don't get me wrong, life is fun but, there are moments where the hardship of the 3 realms of the human life overpower the fun. Once a flame have been snuffed out, i believe that it should/will never be re-kindled again. Can you just tell me whats wrong? If you find me annoying, just tell me, i won't bother you guys anymore. I don't want to lose my true friendships. Please just tell me!
Sorry, had to let that out. Too much of these bad things in your system is just bad right? Okay, so, in the morning, i went to novena to pray for our dear friend who went into the army. After that, there was practice. As usual, most of us were late. But, we still managed to get the songs we wanted to learn, well, learned. No Importa La Distancia was the song we practiced today, despite it still being rather pitchy and sketchy, we now have a rough idea of the whole song. Very nice :D~!..Yup, things are not as they seem.
...shalom...